Where are you now with hope?

Well, hope has been something that I have really been struggling with for the past two years. Before my boyfriend committed suicide on March 23, 2009, I was full of hope. Nothing ever got in my way of accomplishing something as little as learning how to blow a bubble, or as big as running in a cross country state meet and set a certain time for myself that I wanted to achieve. Ever since my tragedy, all of this went away. I tried everything that I possibly could, although I must say that I never gave anything my all to get better. I depended on others to do it for me, which I learned, the hard way, doesn't work at all. Finally, I became introduced to the power of prayer and the bible. My religion is Judaism, but I have really come to like the Christian religion and see how passionate Christians are towards this. Ever since one of my Christian friends told me how powerful prayer was, I thought "Hey, why not give it a try? What do I have to lost?" So for the past couple of months, I have been trying everyday to pray, and read some scripture from a Jewish bible called the Tanakh. My belief in hope has gone up a lot, because before I started to pray, I had no hope for anything. Now I am more active in the Appalachian State community and feel so refreshed and ready to start the day everyday. I do pray that things will continuously get better, and I won't have to fight the battles of depression like I have been for the past couple of years. I have come to realize that everything happens for a reason and that there is a plan for all of us, although at times it may not be easy. I know that I am experiencing this time in my life because it will make me stronger in the end. I have a lot of hope now, and it is all because of the importance and power that prayer has on me and my life.